How Can I Not Love You

by Joy Enriquez

Cannot touch, cannot hold

Cannot be together

Cannot love, cannot kiss,

Cannot have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go

Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you?

What do I tell my heart?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

How does one waltz away from all of the memories?

How do I not miss you when you are gone?

Cannot dream, Cannot share,

Sweet and tender moments

Cannot feel how we feel,

Must pretend it's over

Must be brave, and we must go on

Must not say what we've known all along

How can I not love you?

What do I tell my heart?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

How does one waltz away from all of the memories?

How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you?

Must be brave, and we must be strong

Cannot say what we've known all along

How can I not love you?

What do I tell my heart?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

How does one waltz away from all of the memories?

How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you when you are gone?

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Somehow it's amazing to me that I actually did not write this song, considering how much I can relate to it. Also...quite amazing (and disheartening) that it still hurts to listen to...

"Must be strong, and we must let go/Cannot say what our hearts must know"
&
"Cannot feel how we feel/Must pretend it's over"
...those lines hit me the worst. Wow...I really should stop venting like this publically...but where else can I go? Oh well, I'm alright at the moment; I just shouldn't listen to this song, is all.

This afternoon we had the most glorious rainstorm, the perfect springtime shower: pouring rain, everything-green, and sunlight glowing through the grey clouds, leaving all tinted in light. Mmm...wish it could have gone on and on and on...